| Ephemeral.Delusion |

Ephemeral Delusion

Monday, August 25, 2008, 11:34 PM

I'm Accident-Prone; Please Handle Me With Care.

OMFG. I got no idea why; it seems like I got the curse from *ahem* (I am pretty good at feigning ignorance isnt it, self denial perhaps), well lets just say its a karma for being so much of a bitch. Yes I know who you are, so just surrender my voodoo doll to me NOW!!

1) On Sunday I was jogging inside the Science Park, and i fell. Just because I wanted to avoid the darn security guard whom was carrying big big packets of Styrofoam lunch boxes. When I slipped all he said was:" Be careful!" How I wished he would help me up, haha it was nothing serious, just an abrasion and stuffs. Not serious enough to make me limp, yet the surreal feeling struck me, again. Pathetic worm. The music buzzing in my ear seems to be laughing at me, straight into my ear. Yeah as if their afraid I cant catch them; so I screwed them (whoever that was, Paramore or FOB perhaps?) I dint even have the mood to get myself a drink after that.

zZZ.

2) This morning as i was douching through the canteen, a stupid boy was rolling his chair and when it was rotating it hit my hand. OUCH.

3) After emo dinner I came back to my hall; and when I was planning to take a shower I opened my door and oops; my second toe-sie decided to give the door a kiss. My toe feels flat now. OUCHHH. Well I hope my toe nail wont come off.

Tomorrow will be a wonderful day=]

Post a Comment

Tuesday, August 12, 2008, 2:42 PM

Incredible. love.

Incredible; this is the word of the week. Strangely, lots of things seems to be happening this 2 weeks. Things that dont really fit into reality at all; it doesnt help even if I tilt it left or right, upside down do they still look distorted. Ugly break-ups, disgusting hook ups (that bitch must be too damn desperate), events and things that occurred are in a mess, so fast and in a mess, leaves my head in a trance. I really hope Ash did make the right decision; maybe what I did; that o' so scornful act inspired her.

How far will one go for love? Lying and hurting; the good kinds or even your parents; just because the selfish you started something out of convenience? Frankly speaking the armatures will reckon that to be the most important thing ever, far more over-taking monetary or whatsoever. Their grossly wrong I say, a platonic friendship is the most valuable of all. Dont burn all the bridges that you've built and regret it when he is gone. For me I had always been both right and wrong about things. Falling for the wrong ones and letting those "ain' right!" fall for you. It doesnt help if you wake up everyday and tell yourself whats right and what you must do; because I know, its merely a matter of letting who win- the logical one or the emotions sentimentally?

Advices does kill you sometimes, and people most of the time dont mean what they say. Maybe what I just said is biased, for not all girls share that same kind of "cursed" bliss like me; maybe I should just be an ordinary plain Jane one day and try to sympathize with them. After tasting how it feels to be rejected, that raw and tasteless- no, bitter and sour maybe?- then perhaps, I can learn why its so hard for those girls to live and love. Meanwhile let me figure out how do I solve this ridiculous riddle.

Post a Comment

Tuesday, August 5, 2008, 12:11 AM

Infinity on Low

What a shock, what a thrill, to be alive on this Tuesday morning! Now do we associate this gayness with lark, or was it sheer obscenity without the vulgarity? I figured out this theory which made complete sense to me; now lets talk about why do people sing all good things come to an end whilst bad things lingers? Illustrating with Einstein's Relativity theory explains it all, this is merely a miscalculation of the human mind; I would love to believe that my mental strength can conquer it all, no matter how ferocious or Odele the beast is, nevertheless this is still- the it, the weightless; tasteless; stale; mustered feeling, which and ultimately so only this shadow that darts and hides.

If someone is keen on planting revenge on you, I guess there is no way to avoid it. As much as I love to be in denial, it never pays to get slapped hard in the face once in a while; so hard that you shan't forget. So baffled by relationships, psyched up for the major lift but I dont know what to say when you're caught to blame. We scream out our insecurities yet mutter our apologies; now this is why the world is so wrong. To being a sane, gifted eccentric; my only advice would probably only be to solemn and sceptical of your surreal so. See I spell 'konfusion' with a k. If you do see it marry me please!

I hope I can get the modules I bidded for, or else I will be pretty upset. The timetable looks alright, but I should be capable of doing much better; no I should say it is a must more of a can. People often envy, but jealousy is the cousin of lady envy. Sometimes I'm more scared to tell them the truth, a subtle yet simple reason because I dont want to be seen as an arrogant bitch. They cant tell but we're actually the new face of failure; prettier & younger but not any better off, really. But all in all, I totally enjoyed working in Sony for the past month, although I dont fancy the manager much. I stopped coming home telling my mama how fun the guys are, for those tightening of eyebrow and intense stares; seemingly trying to rip open and expose, layer by layer, inch by inch, what on earth am I made of inside, that red beating thing. I'm merely following my heart ma, and that had been worng all these while anyways.

The skin for my eyebrow piercing is kind of thin, and it doesnt help when everyone seemed determined to freak me out of a tear up there. Of course I'd take care of you baby, shall upload a photo of my love sooon.

archives